Can I? Can I just have you for silly Saturday afternoons? Can I have you in my arms to laugh and joke with? Can I tell you my entire day in a single stare? Can I watch you as you nuzzle into me? Can I hold you tight and never let you go?
I have an image of me in my mind, the calm, quiet me. The me who you see in the early morning hush of sleepiness and drowsy eyelids. I’m standing there smiling, staring at nothing in particular, simply staring, and smiling. You see there’s a comfort wrapped around me in that imaginary place, the comfort of her. The simplest thought of her, the smell of her hair and the beat of her heart against my chest makes me smile, even though I’ve never held her, or smelt her hair. She still makes me smile. One day that smile will be on my face, but not in that imaginary world, oh no, that smile will be staring back at me from my own mirror.
Through the words that escape my lips and the benign smile on my face, my mind is reeling. I look into your eyes as the room floats by us with inane conversations of people we don’t know. The yearning heat of my passion wants me to steal you away, conjured by imagery devoid of manner and ceremony. I wish to be naked and raw with you. To feast on your very body and devour your inhibitions. In a moment I close my eyes and see you writhing like a Greek nymph dancing on my tongue. Shouting, cursing words that don’t make sense in the cold light of day. My eyes open and I am returned to the room, my hands empty of you, but your taste still on my lips.
Those moments, stopping time in an instant, your eyes meeting as your body rock together as one. The connection set, the passions burning and your souls melt into each other. Only a moment, but a moment is all true lovers need!
Is there a better moment than feeling the sun’s rays caressing your back. Your lips clasped to your lover’s neck as you softly rock against her yearning body. The sweet moaning escaping her lips and travelling smoothly over your ear as her hands hold you closer, words intelligible, yet so clear. Begging for you, crying out for you in perfect ecstasy.
Have you ever wanted to take things slow? I mean hours of endless touching, kissing, holding your lover in your arms. Never more than a few inches from you. Body to body from start to finish. Lips pressed to lips, tongues writhing together in erotic bliss. Carnal wishes pouring through you both. Desire and passion filling the air. I have, would you like to join me?
There is a part of me, hidden and dark, it desires you, craves you in the most intimate of ways. I dream of being alone with you. Skin on skin. Lips teasing lips. Hands frantic and feverishly reaching. Wanting everything in a split second, excitedly chasing patience with kisses and caresses. Needing you in the most animalistic of ways, those hot, sweaty, wordless ways.
I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to it crossing my mind every day. The thought of her hair cascading over my face, what would it smell like? The touch of her skin against mine, how soft would it be? Losing myself in her eyes, what would I say? The beat of my heart as she kisses me, what does she taste like? All these things and more, every day, without fail, without rest.
I tire of words, trying to express the yearning my lips hold for you. I wish I could show you the passion you give me. The power you have to make me soar. But I can’t. I have to satisfy myself with simple gestures from a world away. While others are given the fortune to speak your name to your ear and have you listen. I won’t give up. One day I’ll hold you in my arms and whisper the words that I fail to convey on the page. One day you’ll know the yearning my lips hold for you.
That instant when sex becomes less about intercourse and more about the two of you. Your kiss becomes a succession of breathless gasps and wordless gestures. Your eyes open with so much love it’s hard to contain, staring at the person who is making your body sing. Hands travelling with a mind of their own, touching, caressing, scratching, absent-mindedly traversing every contour of each other like you’ve never done before. Your appreciation of one another takes flight and soars as your bodies melt together, every movement slow, delivering electric bliss through your sinews. Slowly disappearing into silence as you stop time for that moment!